Breakthrough moments
in understanding
of my life and myself
My only hope
Don’t be fooled by me.
I wear a 1,000 masks--
masks that I am afraid to take off
For God’s sake, don’t be fooled.
I give the impression that I am secure
that confidence is my name
and coolness my game
and that I need no one.
Please don’t believe me. Please!
My surface may seem smooth,
but my surface is my mask.
Beneath dwells the real me--
in confusion, in fear, in aloneness. . . .
That’s why I frantically
create a mask to hide behind
to shield me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely
my salvation, my only salvation.
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That is, if it is followed by acceptance,
if it is followed by love.
But I don’t tell you this.
I’m afraid your glance will not
be followed by acceptance and love.
I’m afraid you’ll think less of me,
that you’ll laugh at me.
So I play my game.
I dislike the superficial game I’m playing
I’d like to be really genuine.
But you’ve got to help me.
Each time you’re kind
and gentle and encouraging,
each time you try to understand
because you really care,
my heart grows wings.
I want you to know that.
I want you to know how important
you are to me--how you can be
the creator of the personthat is me,
if you choose. Please choose....
It'll not be easy for you.
The nearer you approach
the blinder I might strike back.
I fight against the very thing I cry out for.
But I am told that love is stronger
than the strongest walls, and in this
lies my hope--my only hope!
Masks: Source and Author unknown
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